Going Back to Japan - Apprehensions and Enthusiasm

April fool’s Day will bring me back to Japan. It’s not a joke, for sure. I feel like a rock right now that I can’t feel any excitement or unhappiness. Maybe the two emotions collided that my heart can’t determine what’s what.

Almost a month ago when I was informed that I will be going back in Japan, I was filled with excitement. I really want to see gain the cherry blossoms as it bloom. Buy stuffs that I can’t find here in Davao like the sesame seeds salad dressing, mold and mildew cleaner and others. I told myself before that I just want to be there even for a week so I can bring home those stuffs. And of course, to be with my friends.

But now that I am about to leave, my heart is missing that enthusiasm. I am full of worries. Going back there means leaving my Angel again. I want to help Rommel but I can only help him by going away with them. I wish I can take them with me. I can’t even think clearly… just letting myself go with the flow.